Friday, June 27, 2008

Saturday, June 21, 2008

A Dependence on Love

One of my first emotions in the hospital after Asher was born was the feeling that I would choose to die in a heartbeat if it meant that my son could live. It was so strong. I keep trying to relate this emotion to how GOD had to sacrifice His only Son so that I could truly be forgiven for my countless trespasses against Him throughout my life. I can't, because all I can think about is how not worth it I am.

But at one time I too was as little as Asher resting in my father's arms and he too felt these same emotions in the hospital. Something tells me its an extremely common emotion with every new father and mother. I believe this is how GOD reminds us of his continual love and how it can't be based on actions, because all Asher has done is poop, cry, eat and sleep. Asher is completely dependent on Kim and I to keep him alive. From the day we are born GOD shows us how He wants us to be dependent on Him. He'll take care of us, but we need to continually ask for his guidance.

This whole time Asher has been sleeping in my arms. He's constantly been rustling around trying to either get comfortable or is slowly waking up as I go back and forth from one and two hands typing. He even managed to throw himself out of my arms onto the couch. I'm glad I'm sitting on the couch. I think whether we ask for God's guidance, or not, we're all infants throughout our lives and GOD is trying to type with two hands.

Asher Steven Newman

Asher Steven Newman was born on June 11th at 11:28pm. He weighed 7 pounds and 12 ounces. My last post "Anxiously Awaiting" was at 6:30pm on the 11th, I had no idea an hour later Kim would start going into labor. She wasn't even sure it was real labor until 9:30pm. And we didn't leave the house until 10:30pm. When we arrived at the hospital I was running through the halls pushing Kim in a wheelchair with one hand and the other pulling our luggage. Let's just say it was one crazy hour! Thank you Asher for not deciding to be born in the xB.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Anxiously Awaiting......

It's one day past Baby Kix's due date. Kim drank 3 tablespoons of caster oil today. We've been eating spicy foods for the last two days. Kim told me that some doctors believe that the baby releases hormones when it gets stressed out and that's what begins labor. We don't feel like trying to stress out our baby, that seems kind of mean. We really don't want to be induced. Anybody have any suggestions?