Saturday, December 02, 2006

All isn't fair in love and war

Yesterday, I started blogging about how it wasn't fair that people on salary where I work get to come in late and leave early. And especially yesterday, because I overheard a conversation from someone in HR about how they were going to take off early today because of the weather. It didn't help that it was 8:30 in the morning and they were just rollin in off the elevator. You see I'm one of those that has to punch in by 8am and punch out at 5pm. It doesn't matter what the weather is like, someone has to be around to do the jobs that actually keep the company running.

Well, anyhow that post never made it to production, because as I was writing it, I realized those people can do those things because they don't get paid overtime. If, and that's a big if they ever need to put in those extra 10 hours a week, there is no extra dinero on their payroll. That's just the way the cookie crumbles in corporate america.

Another way I began to look at it is GOD let those people have those positions and He let me have mine. All is fair in love and war? Well, I guess its how you look at life. Nowhere does the Bible say anything is going to be fair in anyone's lifetime on earth, only that in the end all will be judged accordingly. So why then am I always complaining about what others have and what I don't have? What is this inside me that keeps analyzing what I have/don't have, and how can I go about getting it. "All warfare is based on deception" -Sun Tzu. Life is a war and I have been deceived! A war with wanting more than I need for no reason other than The Jone's next door having it. I deserve it because they're no better than I! The war is between my perception and wisdom, not against the man, or the Jone's. I so badly want to point my finger, but in the end it all comes down to my actions. Knowing the war is me vs me is half the battle, now i just need to figure out how to make peace.